Part 4 through 5 if you will
Here goes!
Reading Log: The last chapters move alot faster than the earlier parts. I finished the book ages ago but I have had an insane amount of work to do so as far as posting anything is concerned I’ve just been an awful student. In my defence part of It is of course work but also the two plays I’m involved with so i suppose it’s a silver lining (the course is about culture and all). I had a few laughs when i realised some people found the time to read two books. No way!
Finishing the book felt great. To me the book is a page-turner and trying not to read it all at the same time has in retrospect been the most challenging part. As i got to meet the exes of Robs and see who they had become, and read his thoughts about them I fell even deeper in love with the book, and getting to the end left me feeling like a cannonball had hit my head. The way he appeared to con himself into thinking his latest ex Laura was nothing compared to his Charlie had me completely fooled. I was looking for the metaplot of his constant oscillation between resenting Laura and missing her and also for the way out for him. I was so busy looking for it i was dooped the same way he was. It was in the end that i realized that was never the answer, she was.
I left the last post at a crossroads. I am speaking of the epiffany Rob came too at Lauras fathers funeral. He realized he was afraid of death. So scared in fact that he felt a need to be a bit cavalier towards life. It allowed him to cheat on Laura, because cheating on her caused her to mean less, or so his subconscious thought. It allowed him to not let go of Charlie, because if she was the ultimate woman there was nothing to lose. It even made him want to keep smoking, because smoking ment he didn’t care about death or even fear it. When he realised this he did not call up his family or his former girlfriends, but he told Laura. Not to change her mind about leaving but to let her know why he didn’t get it, get why people want the things they want and need the things they need. It was his descision to give up and just hate life rather than change it that made him embittered to the point where she wanted to leave.
The funny part about it is, with me being as thick as I assume most men are, the fact that i couldn’t have had this explained to me in a comprehensible way without the story, the narrative of Rob Flemming. You could have told me but i wouldn’t have felt any difference. This is why the book had to be so overwhelmingly full of angst and the idiosyncrasies of people. The message would have ment nothing without it.
Now when i’m done, these ideas slowly fade. The book though brilliant in its style is loosing it’s grip over me. It seems to happen everytime, after a while i just remember a feeling the book gave me but not much of the thoughts it brought to me. Those thoughts grow obscelete as i see new questions in fornt of me that maybe the next shenannigan might hold the answers too. I peruse the book for an anecdote that may explain what this book is, there is none. As any book that is considered ok literature it would take another book to explain it’s magic. If not, it could just have been a leaflet instead.
I’ve looked through most of the reading logs, there are some intresting choices among them. I descided to comment on Lord of the Flies, i read it a few years back and i remember finding it slightly redundant, and not all that captive so i wanted to give some kudos at http://janinahykkyra.wordpress.com/
The second comment can be found on http://hannasenglishproject.blogspot.fi/ She is late too so i just felt a connection, and also I have read One flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest.
http://skolbloggen.ratata.fi/ Is my final comment. It’s two am and my eyelids feel like they are made of lead. Basically i saw the movie which is why i commented.
Furthermore:
During Lauras fathers memorial her and Rob run off and almost have some uncomfortable sex in a car but end up chainsmoking in a pub after Rob is unable to resist asking Laura if she and Ray used protection. When they go back, they go back as a couple. Rob and Laura reassume their relationship the next few days they spend with the obligatory were-do-we-stand-now-has-anything-changed-and will-it-be-different-now-conversations that there seems to be abound during any getting back together faze. During this time Rob struggles, quite amusingly with himself. He wants to be right but chooses to accept that he is not, although he is unable to divulge this to Laura. In the end he gives in. He used to work as a DJ when which is how he met Laura and he really loved doing it. She gives him the opportunity to do it again and right there, standing in his rostrum playing songs with the crowd dancing he sees Laura and starts planning a mixed tape for her with songs she would actually listen too. He feels content as he realises he may yet understand how things are done.
When i now look through the book i realise part of it’s charm is the way it’s all held together by short sidetracks the characters end up in. Colorless and colorfull anecdotes alike, they bring a certain natural feeling to the text, people would actually think and speak like this.
Dear Nick Hornby
You are an impressive author, you seem to wright the way I wish I could. Your language is intelligent and your way of explaining something is very practical. I will definately read more of your books as soon as possible.
The brutal honesty with which you pick apart the things we do without knowing why is very scathing. But scathing in a warm and forgiving way. On the flipside however your work also needs a persons openness and willingness to understand and analyze. This may be true for all literature to a certain extent but i daresay High Fidelity has very little to give without the will to enjoy. If i had chosen not to reflect as much over the course of reading it could have felt like a 250 page bashing of everyday annoyances. I’m glad i didn’t though.
With regards and hopes of one day overcoming the shortcomings of my sex,
Leo Backman.